Scambled

Today was the day that I realized that I’m going away for a long time and I am not at all prepared for that. As I reluctantly backed up and purged my files from my desktop machine I was also packing what amounts to almost all of my clothes into two huge pieces of luggage. Deciding what to bring and what to leave home at first wasn’t a problem, but the later it got, the more stressful the whole ordeal became.

All day I have felt the physiological effects of my situation start to encroach on me. Loss of appetite and what I guess would be best described as butterflies in my stomach. I just feel fortunate that I really enjoy flying, or I would be a total mess. The biggest factor is that I just have no idea what is going to happen with this program, and there are a lot of questions that I don’t have the answer for, which makes it feel like I am totally unprepared.

But deep down I know that it will be OK and that I should be enjoying every second of this remarkable opportunity. And I will.